I Don't understand why you want Christmas to be over

This christmas seems to be the worse christmas you have had. and I don't know why My self I can't wait until christmas morning to see the look on Cody's face at the things santa brought him. I'm sad and sorry our other two will not be here but we knew all of this would happen when we started a family together. but I will not take away happiness from Cody. because his brother and sister are not here